Ok, here it goes. Been a long time since I wrote anything in here. Since I moved to California in November (where have the last 8 months gone?!) things have been off track. I barely make it to the gym, I can count the number of times I’ve gone to Zumba on one hand…maybe two. Although I’ve relocated to the land of fruit and nuts (yes, I’m referring to the food…and the people) I am also in the land of amazing food. Name a country and it’s here, especially Asia and of course Mexico, my personal weakness. Are these excuses? Yes. Are they real? Yes.
So what is this post about then? My unwillingness to take responsibility for my eating and activity habits? Nope. I own those baby. What I wanted to talk about is the fact that there’s something in the water, or the way the moon is positioned or maybe it’s in the Earth’s rotation, but I’m not alone in these struggles. A lot of my fellow bloggers have been dealing with these struggles and one thing we all have in common is our reaction. We have all faded into the background, me more than others I’ll admit. Well I received an email from Liz Wolfe of Real Food Liz that couldn’t have come at a better time. In the email she talked about “accidental dieting”…I know what the heck does that mean?! Just reading the subject line I was like…nope, not something I do. But of course my curiosity got the better of me so I read on. In her words:
How do you know you’re an accidental diet-er?
- You’re still emotionally tortured about your food choices, your ability to make decent decisions, or how your body looks (yep)
- You still think of food in terms of “bad” or “good” or worse – “approved” or “not approved” …even 30 days later (uh-huh)
- You’re still looking at someone else’s body or life and hoping your chosen “program” will bring you closer to looking or living like THAT (YATZEE!)
- You have a “guru” you look to rather than being your own guru (yep, Chalene Johnson, Jillian Michaels…there’s more but I’ll stop there)
Liz goes on to say that what this boils down to is we don’t trust ourselves. We accept societies message that we can’t do it ourselves and then constantly look for the next thing to “change our lives”. We transform the outside and neglect to fix what’s going on inside. We feel like we’ve failed…I feel like I’ve failed.
So how do we change our mindset? Honestly, I don’t know. It’s something we will have to work on and remember to give ourselves a break. The image bar at the top of my site says “Love Yourself”, I put that there a long time ago. It’s a mantra I try to incorporate into my life to help me remember that I’m not perfect and I need to cut myself some slack from time to time. So this is me reminding you, and myself to cut yourself some slack.